The forceful interference by the psychiatric institution doesn't affect my sense of self worth consciously, but I realize it does effect my thoughts. A couple of days I left a flattened plastic bottle filled with apple juice in the mail box, to see if someone would drink it, and if they would return the bottle. Today I found the bottle gone. Thoughts like these 'that was a bit foolish, I'm much better now', 'I learned from it, see, that's how I do things, thinking positively and learning from being creative'. I'm trying to boost my self image. Also this: 'I'm one of the worlds strongest thinkers and the world needs me, it's a bad thing that my thoughts are pressured like this'.